Fourth Scene - Why so Upset?

Mama PC

Let me go back a few years. (From John I get my information. His sister backs it up.) The first time I had a chance to hang out with John and two of his siblings (at Bill's apartment) we had a really great time laughing and telling stories. That evening, traveling home after laughing and cutting up with me, John and Susie commented on how cute they thought I was and fun to be around. This was when I was 18. But, secretly, in his heart, John liked me, but knew that we weren't suited for one another. Plus, I was dating Bill.

As the months went by, Susie actually had a strong interest in Bill, and felt like SHE was supposed to marry him! Yes, you heard that right. He led her on when he had the chance and she felt like I was pulling him away from her. She was the one who gave me a going away party when I left for college in August of 1978.

On the other hand, John, Susie, Charles and their parents were in agreement in saying that "Pam was bringing down the youth pastor"! They actually made judgements about me but didn't even know me on a personal level. I was talked about in their home in the years 1978, '79 and thereafter, I'm sure.

So, for John to all of a sudden have romantic attraction to me went against all he stood for and all his family stood for. It angered him. He says that he had his guard up, even. When he tells his story, he actually holds his fingers out like he's forming a cross to ward off a vampire!

He did not and could not have a relationship with me other than a mentor or older brother.